The story of “The Inner Child”
This Album is a very personal one. It is the sonic representation of my own journey towards healing. Acknowledging past traumas and accepting that the journey of healing takes time is crucial to achieve true inner peace. It is also about falling in love with the journey, realizing that emotions are valid, despite what they may be. When these emotions are not neglected, we can really transform into a better version of ourselves by listening to our hearts.
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An expression of the full picture of the inner self, which is vast and ever reaching. The orchestral interruption in the middle represents an explosion of untapped potential of love, joy, sadness, and regret. All these emotions with their various depths exist in all of us.
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An expression of confidence, swagger and a carefree vibe. When I am most confident, having a good body image/self-image day, this is how I feel and how it is expressed musically.
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This song is about how easy it is to become avoidant. The strings represent the inner child deep within saying, maybe something isn’t okay. There is then a sharp juxtaposition to a funky beat. The two dynamics struggle for control.
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Ultimately, the inner child whose emotions have been neglected starts to take over, the turmoil begins, and it cannot be controlled. He is overcome by negative emotions, and it feels like the entire world is upside down or in reverse.
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This track is the result of all these avoidant unhealthy behaviours. The constant and sometimes jittery piano represents the damaged little one, whose heart keeps cracking. The lone voice cuts through the noise, representing a cry for help, a desperation and fear of being rejected
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“Autophobia” – “The fear of being alone” This track expands upon being alone. All the voices in my head scream all these negative thoughts, negative emotions, hence the song starts with some “uncertain, tense” chords. These voices get louder and louder until I finally take control and silence them. From there, I look deep within and find my inner child. I hug him tell him that it will be okay, take his hand and begin a journey of healing.
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Both me and the inner child start a new journey. We explore different parts of ourselves and look at them as they are, without judgement. It is here where I am now truly finding myself
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I have now accepted myself for who I am, no matter how complex my inner emotions are. I understand and accept them for what they are. Furthermore, I don’t beat myself up when I feel bad things. I allow myself to feel and process it healthily.
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The healing has begun, but it doesn’t stop. More work needs to be done, I have opened up myself to the world. Now there’s more work to be done, people to help and love to share. <3
If you made its this far, thanks for reading. This album was such a personal album that I was honestly very scared to share. I feel so open and exposed. But it takes strength to be vulnerable. Thank you for listening <3
